I Had No Instinct (S1:E4)

Kate Hopper had dreamed of a totally natural birth, with no drugs and no medical interventions. But when her baby was born two months early, Kate had to enter the unnatural world of the neonatal intensive care unit, where incubators, tubes, and monitors kept her daughter at a distance, and where Kate had to struggle to find her own identity as a mother.

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Kate Hopper's book about her experience: Ready for Air

Kate Hopper's website: Motherhood and Words


Imaginary Friend by johnny_ripper

Tea Tea Tea by Chapelier Fou, remixed by johnny_ripper

In a Dream by johnny_ripper

Staircase with Felix Green by johnny_ripper

Une Belle Fin by johnny_ripper

A Song for Charlie Kaufman by johnny_ripper